Thank You DWB

Dear DWB Friends:

We are truly touched to see news on Y.Y in the DWB news today. We are overwhelmed with the amount of support that all our puppy friends and even those whom we've never met, showed at this low point in our lives.

To Addie and Lucie, Khyra, Opy & Charlie and the puppies behind DWB news and those whom we may have missed, thank you so much for thinking of us and for posting about what happened in your bloggies. We are so overwhelmed with the support that you and all our DWB friends showed in the past days.

It would have been way easier to give up and sulk in one corner, but I feel it would be unfair for Aki and Poopie if I do so. Not only will I be letting all of you down, I will be letting all their brothers and sisters down as well. I will be letting myself down in the process too.

Your words of encouragement and support provide us with the strength to endure each day of this much unforseen tragedy. The pain had dwindled a little but the wound of this tragedy hasn’t healed yet. I continue to see Y.Y everytime I open Aki and Poopie’s bloggie, everytime I meet a stray dog, everytime I hear a cry for help. I guess it stings more because of the fact that I wasn’t there. I did not have a choice. I could not in any way, no matter how hard I cry in exasperation, frustration and sheer grief, do anything to help him.

As we often say, we believe that everything happens for a reason and we know that God has a plan for this. I don't know when I will come to truly understand it, but I hope, at the very least that this will be the last of the bloodshed.

For now, we will be taking more strict measures to ensure that all the dogs will not get out of their enclosures. I do not wish to question this tragedy because every dog in our household occupies a space in my heart and putting anyone of them in a bad light breaks my heart. For sure, there are decisions to be made, but I wish at the very bottom of my heart that each one will be given an equal fighting chance to live perfectly normal lives.

I still maintain that a deeper understanding of the 'whys' must be arrived at. To not just give up and take the easiest form of escape. I do not know if selfishness or closed-mindedness is what drives me to still hold on to the hope that things will get better. That there are less drastic measures that may be considered before we can truly say that a certain ‘case’ is hopeless. Never once, did I believe that something or someone is hopeless.

750 or Severino Pepito as I would fondly call him, is what brought us to bring Aki into our lives. He inspired us to consider taking in a Labrador. Back then, I was all for Goldens. He had been the catalyst of so many things, including the opening of our household to so many furkids.

In most honesty, the circumstances surrounding why we arrived with so many dogs at my parents' house is not something that I entirely approve of. I have for years, reiterated this, but as a daughter/sister, who only goes there to visit, I do not have much say on decisions made. I can only provide support and suggestions.

But what seems so magical about dogs, is how opening your heart to one, almost inadvertently leads you to open your heart to all of them. In as much as I disapprove of taking care of so many dogs for economic and emotional reasons, I have found myself in a situation where I have to. They are living beings after all. Creatures who have nothing but pure hearts and nothing but only love and loyalty to give. In my own means, I have tried to afford them access to better lives. I do not know though, if it was enough.

This is why I feel so helpless in the face of this tragedy. Fighting battles for dogs and animal welfare for others, but protecting one's own when they need it the most is one of the worst contradictions imaginable... and yet, here I am. Standing at this crossroad. Waiting for a miracle that my prayers for clarity and peace will be heard.

We might go on hiatus for a while. Not too long, because life continues on for Aki and Poopie. It would be very selfish of me. We will try to visit your bloggies though. Blogging means a lot to us because this is our way of documenting the lives of our dear fursiblings and our DWB friends are just so special that we can't thank you all enough for being with us on this difficult time.

Again, thank you so much for everything that you have done for us. You guys are gems worth keeping and we are forever grateful for the friendship that you have shown.

We are so happy to be part of this wonderful family.

We love you all so much!

In behalf of Aki and Poopie and all at home, I extend our sincerest appreciation.

Micchi